Its the end of our winter break

Its official, tomorrow is the 1st day of our 2nd trimester. Holiday really didn't feel like a holiday to me. bluergh! But whatever it is, I'm glad I managed to sleep through the last few of days of my holiday, whatever that is left of it. On top of that, I also managed to go out shopping today=D

Well when I decided to join Farah and Haz to go to Lambton, I really didn't have anything specifically in mind. In fact, I thought that for once, I should stick to a tight budget and not buy anything. Hurm, that's exactly what I thought before I left Education House today but I guess people change their mind in a matter of seconds because not so long after walking, I bought 2 things which was so unnecessary(so much for wanting to stick to a budget la kan). But well, there's 3 important birthdays this month and that could be a reason to dress up a little right?

This morning I realised that I haven't had the time to think of what subjects to take this trimester. Well, thinking seems like one of those things that I haven't been doing lately. Maybe I need to pause for a moment and THINK clearly for once. Up until now, I still haven't really decide what subjects I should be taking. Hopefully by the end of next week I can make up my mind.

My cousin got married a few days ago, it's abit unfortunate that I can't go. I wanted to go back home so badly right after the exam but of course I couldn't. Congratulations Shafie=D

I guess I should be going back to sleep, I have a class at 8.30am tomorrow. Hopefully I'll wake up in time. To everyone, Selamat mula belajar=D

Team futsal yang disayangi, Iynas, Mira, Fatin, Me, Ili, Auni, Lina, Firdaus, Nadiah, Aisyah, Waznah

at the end of the day...

Bersatu is over and I'm glad. Not that I'm proud that we've done a good job, I know I am not in the position to be happy as Bersatu was such a disaster. But anyway, I'm just glad things are over. I thought as a Treasurer all I have to do is just manage WMSO's account. But I guess when I signed up for the job, there were a lot of things that were waiting in line for me.

People are talking, and there's nothing I can do to stop them from doing so. I am not about to justify myself to make people stop talking. In fact do talk about me, Insyaallah banyak la pahala saya. But I cant believe that some people terlebih confident. They didnt go through what we went through and yet they want to compare their past achievement with Bersatu. Maybe they forgot, things wouldn't be as successful without committed members. It doesnt take just a leader to make an event work.

And the funny thing is I dont recall them coming to me trying to give me any advice when we were in a middle of a crisis and now they are saying we should have done this and that. Whats the point again? Bersatu has already ended. Nothings gona change the fact that Bersatu was a disaster and there's no point dwelling on it. Come on, I knew Bersatu was gona be a disaster before it even started. but I decided to stick by my committee and help wherever possible instead of coming to them at the end of the day and say you should have done this and that. blergh~

Seperti hendak memadam api tengah menyala, disiramkan minyak pula ke atasnya.

...Exams are over, and I'm bored already=P...

For some reason, the urge to blog is stronger when my exams are just around the corner. Don't we all agree? yes? no? Never mind but I know it works that way for me. So dear friends, spare some time for me and bear with me for a little while.

Somehow, it feels like my last paper was last week or something padahal my last paper was just yesterday. Unlike what we all planned to do (or maybe it was just me), I ended up not going for Narnia (by choice) or even for a karaoke session.

So instead I ended up going to Cha with Vivian Ali and Haz. It was great catching up with both of them kalau Haz tak payah la, I see her like almost everyday! boring~ =p

Well while I'm blogging, I might as well take this opportunity to bitch about other people. So, when we were at Cha I ordered a freaking Iced Blended Mango Tea with Tapioca (is that how you spell it?its that thing we all call bubbles, not the alcohol but that purple colored thing) Pearls.

Not only this lady took like half an hour long to make our drinks, she also made my drink without the bubbles. So I told her I ordered one with the bubbles. Ok, that was fine and then she came back to tell me that its going to be at an additional cost. Duh! like I don't know that?

Ok maybe I was abit rude. But in the first place she should have listened to me carefully when I gave my order (dahla she interrupted our conversation). Everyone except her heard that I wanted my drink with bubbles and we all realised that she probably didn't get the order right. But I for once thought that maybe I should see the best out of people and that she could have heard me correctly or to put it correctly that she wasn't ***** or deaf.

Took her a few more minutes to put the bubbles in my drink and when its done, she practically slammed the drink on the table and left without even looking at us. Biatch! not like its my fault, I bet she must have spat in my drink. I hope she doesn't have any disease tho. Ergh. disgusting! well it wasn't that bad but yeah cant help feeling that girl was a complete pain in the tuuut tuut!

This story reminds me of another bad experience I encountered while trying to buy a decent cake for our friend's birthday. I wanted tiramisu so badly, but we all know that people normally put wine in tiramisu. So I tried asking whether the cake contains alcohol. Guess what her answer was *yes, yes this is large size*

Farah Nonie and I tried our best to explain to her what it was that we wanted to find out, Nonie siap ngan hand gestures lagi tu but not hand gestures as in tunjuk middle finger laaa Nonie enthusiastically tunjuk gesture orang tengah mix the ingredients and asked what they put inside the cake. Tu pun she didn't get us. Alas, we gave up and left the shop in disappointment as we never found out what the answer was.

So tell me, how can you not be angry? Clearly, she doesn't even understand English which I believe should be the minimum requirement to work in a foreign country where English is their 1st language. okay2 enough bitching about others.

So today, right from the moment I woke up til about 1am, I watched the 1st half of Brothers and Sisters season 1. God, I love the show! I'm practically in love with all the characters. It somehow reminds me of my family, how we are so imperfect but yet soo perfect for each other, or even how our life can be such a drama at times . Just like in the show, I've never stopped loving my family so profusely and I thank them for loving me in return although I can be pretty annoying at times or maybe all the time. hehe

Gosh, I wish I can go home now, it has been an exhausting trimester for me. I wish can go to some place far away and drop everything I have right now. Yes I know, running away wont help me solve anything. Its just a thought=p

At the moment, I wish I can go back for raya this year but this will depend on the workload for the next trimester. If things turn out well, I might wanna go home but then again, this will be my last raya here but also my first raya after a major family reunion. So which one should i be choosing? Hurm....

Note to dear girlfriends, how dare you girls buat slumber party like the night before my last paper, and after Farah & I finished our last paper you people acted like it didn't mean anything to you girls? huh? not even a celebration for us? Eeee, so insensitive of you girls! sobs. like seriously, I'm sulking. huh! so omong sama tangan! bluek!

Well, I guess its time for me to sleep. Toodles~!!!!

...Procrastinating...

Its one of those things that I'm really good at. Especially during my study break, I get so easily distracted. Somehow I'll just find things to do so that I don't have to study.*Sigh*

Tadi after my financial exam, I wasn't feeling so well, tetibe je rase macam nk demam. Fish! (I'm trying to not curse, otherwise Ibu [farahmexx] saya marah). The timing couldn't be more perfect huh? I've got one more exam, so please don't fail on me, my dear immune system. Once I'm done with my exams I promise I will pamper my self and stop eating junks! So please don't fail on me right now.

Ok so during lunch time I thought, I should probably get some sleep and hopefully by the time I wake up, I'll feel much better then I can study Coml. However, two hours and a bag of chips later, I was nowhere near falling asleep. In fact I was busy playing the word challenge on facebook. Stil am!

Seriously, I'm just too lazy to study. This morning when I woke up, I had this really strong urge to go back to sleep and skip the exam. But the geek in me made me do it anyway. Kenape la of all things I have to be a nerd?

FYI, I'm not only a geek/nerd, I am also very very clumsy! Yesterday morning I spilled like 150grams of coffee grounds. So before going to the library I had to clean up my room plak. Don't get me started la with how clumsy I can get. But the thing is I am more accident and clumsy prone when I'm at Farah's or Haz's place. Ironic isn't it? Harharhar! Only god knows what's been on their carpet(because I've spilled too many things on their carpet). In fact I think by the end of the year, the carpet in Farah's living room will have "patterns and patches" on it. Sorry girls!!! All pun unintentional;p

I'm nowhere near excited pn knowing that my exams will finish on Saturday. Orang lain dah lame merdeka kot? But whatever it is, my friend says the new Narnia Movie is good. I might wanna watch it after my exam and after that girls, lets go sing our lungs out. de-stress=D

A reminder to myself

I realise that I tend to take things for granted. Well, don't we all do? For example, sometimes we tend to forget and act all insensitive to those who matters to us. Or is it just me? If its just me ok la, hopefully I will soon learn how to appreciate those who mean the world to me. So dear friends, sorry for all the trouble I've been putting you guys through and thanks for being there for me when I needed you guys most=P Corny plak la kan, lalala

Btw, omg! Hampir lupa nk check on my bimbo Farahmexx today. Lucky shes still alive, phew~!

Update on my bimbo: she's put on 30 lbs, she will soon work in the Fashion Industry as a plus size model. LoL! she's so chubby now! but don't worry, a nip and tuck wont hurt and works every time=P gosh, now I sound like Samantha. Remember when she said “You know me, I don’t really believe in marriage. Now Botox on the other hand, that works every time " Somehow I feel this line is soo cathcy!

I'm not implying that I agree with her as I strongly believe in marriage and I also believe that we women should grow older gracefully. Lagipun dah tua2 sape la kan nak ngurat? Life is not all about trying to be/look beautiful. God will not ask you whether you were beautiful during your life time kaaan? Its good la for those who have beautiful features but I believe that inner beauty is just as important. I would say, I respect people who have both but I personally prefer a natural beauty who's down to earth. They really inspire me!

And as for me I've always had a thing for guys yang baik kot? Looks is not really what I look for. For me as long as he can make me happy I'm content=D Or maybe I just need a guy who doesn't need me=P referring to one of Haz's post.

Well as some may have noticed, Imran and I are taking a time off each other. We both believe that we have been taking each other for granted because we both have been spending too much time together I guess? So a time off would be a good thing for us as of now. I'm not sure if this is temporary or permanent but I believe in fate and I also believe that absence makes our heart grows fonder. If our path crosses in the future, its a sign that we should be together although I'm not really sure if I want it to happen so soon as I'm still so young. I admit I'm still emotionally attached to him but don't worry I'm doing fine. This is what we both needed anyway.

I'm Yours

Depression

Seriously, I just cant wait for my exams to finish. Lucky me, i just realised that my coml exam is an open book exam. But of course la kena buat reading jugak kan, xkan la time exam baru nk carik ape jawapan die. But open book exam slalu susah. So cuak gak kan.

Yesterday when Farah and I were on the way to the library, we saw one junior yang baru habis main netball, Aaaah jealousnye! not like i enjoy playing netball, but jealous simply because I know alot of people are done with their exams. Tomorrow I have futsal training, not sure if I'm going as I need to study for my coming exams and I think I'm about to fall sick with a fever.

I've been slacking the whole day and not to mention, I've been eating all day. I seriusly think I'm gonna put on weight. Exam is really bad for me, I tend to munch when I study. I therefore vow to hit the gym everyday once I'm done with exams (Yeah right nana as if you would really do it)

Right now, I cant help feeling how pathetic my life is. This very feeling came up when I stumbled upon one of my friends blog. I instantly felt green with envy when I found out that she was doing her internship in NYC. its NYC baby! Its the city of Labels and Love!!! Well i may sound ungrateful but wateva, I live in a boring city with no Labels and Love. And of course, cant help feeling that my friends in UK are so fortunate too.

Post Tax and Finance exam

I'm done with my Tax and Finance paper, somehow it feels like I'm done with all four of them. Contrary to what I expected, Tax was bareable but Finance on the other hand was such a let down. Now, I'm left with my Financial and Coml paper. I feel pretty bummed that the 1st and 2nd year commerce students are done with their exams now.

However, I'm thankful that I have plenty of time to do my revision. Klau exam dekat2 sure everyday I get anxiety attack like on Tuesday or was it Monday? First, I couldnt sleep until 4 or 5 in the morning. Then the next day, when I woke up my palms were sweating like wat only! also I wasnt hungry through out the whole day which almost never happened to me! I'm a big eater, I almost never eat. In fact I eat constantly through out the day.Yes, dats y I'm chubby.) And my palms pn are almost never sweaty! Farah suggested its probably the symptoms of anxiety attack.

I was awake for 30 hours for the 1st tym. And I'm happy that I actually stayed up all night last night. Well, at first my brain macam lembap and I was spacing out in the middle of exam. Lucky I had Kit Kat with me, felt better instantly. Dahla makan tengah2 exam, Farah sed the person yang jaga us looked at me. Tapi tak nyesal pn stay up, it was worth every second because when i browsed my lecture notes for the last time, I noticed that I have missed out alot of important things. So tax went well as far as I'm concerned and I'm happy=D

I have to admit, I didnt really think Finance paper will be so different from the past years. I definitely underestimated this paper, because exam paper 2007 in particular was so easy. So after doing the past year, I didnt do any extra revision. I was more concerned about Tax because I didnt do so well for my test. Hish, now I'm pretty mad at myself. I should have studied more. Is Karma actually getting its revenge on me? Is this what people call getting what you deserve? Or maybe Ive turn into a bimbo sebab banyak sangat main bimbo?

Hopefully my sleeping pattern will go back to normal, yesterday after the exam I slept at 7pm, after Sufya sent me my dinner. I didnt even bother to eat, I straight away went to sleep and woke up at 10am today=D

Just got the exact dates for my interview. It will be in Auckland, from the 10th til the 13th. My interview is on the 1st day so I've got three days to explore Auckland. I might wana stay in Auckland until the 14th, but itu pun klau Haz is staying. Haz was saying nk ajak gi Coromandel.

Today I didnt study at all, I decided to clean up my room instead and buat laundry but tomorrow will be working very hard! InsyaAllah.

My Bimbo.......

I have a virtual bimbo and her name is Farahmexx, named after one of my dearest friend. She is 23 days old and lives in a one bedroom apartment. Currently her Boyfriend named Pete Dirty gives her 150 bimbo dollar and 100 bimbo attitude everyday( thats wonderful isnt it?if only i get nzd150 dollar from Imran everyday=p). She is training as a hairstylist as she wishes to work in a hair salon. Her weight is 125lbs and she has won over 60 challenges. So i guess thats all i have to say about my bimbo. LoL! If anyone of you have nothing to do, and would like to play this game,click here.

Dont forget to add up me on your list of friends. Do give it a try, and if you dont like it you can delete your account. Otherwise, do take good care of your bimbo.=D


Taken from the website:
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Can't help feeling abit lonely and bimbo-ish

Just got back from the Farah's place. I love going to their place not just because Fazuin is such a good host=P but also because it always feel homey up there.The people and the environment always make me feel like we're a family every single time i pay them a visit. Now that I'm back in my room and its quiet, I cant help feeling a wee bit lonely.

If only I keep a cat in Education House, I'm sure it would be fun to stay at home just watching the cat jump here and there. And of course, I wouldn't feel as lonely=( Jadi, untuk merubat kerinduan, I went to trademe to have a look at cute little kittens. I love kittens and I enjoy being able to watch them grow older.

I still remember how small and frail Jack and Sarah were when I first saw them last summer. They were only about 4 weeks old back then. I still remember how I would carry them all over the house and how worried I was when I heard them their voices in the middle of the night. I immediately ran down just to make sure they were fine. Ingat kan kene gigit anjing, but no they were just being naughty, xnk tido and the dog next door plak memang suke bark. Hish buat risau je kan. My parents and siblings were wondering why I went down, dahla panic giler plak tu. hahaha tengok2 xde ape pn. By February, Jack was already piling up on weight but Sarah unfortunately passed away=( So, on trademe I saw a siberian cat. cantik, but its expensive and even if I can afford it, not like I can keep it.

Ok, enough about cats. I've got two test on Wednesday. MOFI 201 and ACCY 305. I'm still as clueless as I was early this week. Right now I'm mad at myself for not knowing how to set my priorities right. Balik2 main Bimbo. I'm becoming a bimbo myself these days. Hish, I know my parents prayed for the best but If I dont work hard things won't work out fine. I believe in 99% of hard work and 1% of luck. See? Luck wont bring me anywhere. And I'm not working hard at all. How how? I dont wana look back and regret. I hate having to do that. I still have 55 hours left, I'm not gonna give up just yet after 20 years of hard work okla, minus 5 la cos i started kindergarten at the age of 6. and I'm still 20!=P